Facing Faith Part 1

I took a plane ride this past week which gave me time to just sit and read. In the course of reading the scriptures listed in my daily devotion, I just kept reading and it opened my eyes to some new theories. The total passage of what I read was Genesis 14-17. Let me summarize the chapters before we begin this blog:

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Genesis 14 – In this chapter, numerous kings are fighting and in the process Sodom and Gomorrah is overrun. When this happens, Lot (Abram’s nephew) is captured. When Abram hears of this he takes 318 servants and goes after him. He ends up rescuing Lot. Melchizedek king of Salem brings him bread and wine (which Abram gives back 10% of). The king of Sodom comes to Abram and says “give me the people and you take the goods”. But Abram refuses the “reward” replying with “with raised hand I have sworn an oath to the Lord, God Most High, Creator of heaven and earth, that I will accept nothing belonging to you, not even a thread or a strap of a sandal, so that you will never be able to say, ‘I made Abram rich.’ I will accept nothing but what my men have eaten and the share that belongs to the who went with me…”

Genesis 15 – In this chapter, the Lord makes an agreement with Abram. The Lord says to him, “Do not be afraid, Abram. I am your shield, your very great reward”. Abram is promised a child from the Lord, a true son of his own blood as his heir. The Lord also promises beyond the very thing Abram brings up and promises to give him “offspring” greater than the count of the stars.

Genesis 16 – Everyone is pretty familiar with this story. Abram and Sarai couldn’t conceive (and even though the Lord had already told Abram he would have a true heir) Sarai gave Hagar, their servant, to Abram as a wife. She become pregnant and then Sarai regretted her decision. Hagar ends up running away and is met by an angel of the Lord – with a message that isn’t very happy. Abram was 86 when Ishmael was born.

Genesis 17 – This chapter opens up stating Abram is 99 years old and the Lord is confirming the covenant He made with Abram. God gives Abram and Sarai name changes to Abraham and Sarah. He talks in great length about his covenant with Abraham and gives details on what Abraham is to do from this point forward. He also confirms his promise to give him a true heir and Abraham laughs. God explains he is to name his son Isaac, and discusses the blessings of each child. The chapter concludes with every male, whether by blood or bought, getting circumcised.

I thought I was going to be able to get everything down in one blog, but clearly, even writing this, the Holy Spirit just keeps showing me things. So this is going to be a 5 part blog. I’m sorry – I know I hate things like this too – but there’s just too much to write down and take in for one blog. I do hope the things the Holy Spirit has shown me will somehow bless you. It’s amazing to me how I can be reminded everyday of just how little faith I have sometimes. When you read these stories, it’s easy to push them off as literally, just stories. But I challenge you to go through and read chapters 14-17 of Genesis so they are fresh on your mind. As you read, put yourself in Abram/Abraham’s shoes and really think about what you would do in those situations. How would you react? Would you make the same decisions? I think what you will realize will make you really stop and think about where you are in your walk of faith. This blog is called “Facing Faith” for a reason. It’s not easy. It’s scary. It’s not the picture perfect, easy to walk path some christians make it out to be. So let’s get dirty and talk about the real stuff. Be on the look out for part 2. I’m not rushing this process so it might be a little bit in between. Thank you for always reading what the Lord tells me to write. I feel like an idiot sometimes – but I do it anyways. That’s me, facing faith.


Restoring Vision

In the past week or so, I have been struggling to just want to quit everything. It didn’t matter if it was work, motherhood (being honest here), working out… I just wanted to quit. It felt like this invader of some kind had taken over my mind temporarily because I don’t think like this. I was always raised to try, try again. Never give up. Always give 110% no matter what you do. So why was I fighting this feeling of throwing in the towel?
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The devil and his army is a very real thing. He will creep in without you knowing. This is the importance of making sure you mind is always filled with Godly things. (If your closet is full of clothes, you can’t put more clothes and shoes in it. If it’s empty or half filled then you will be tempted to buy more clothes and shoes!! 🙂 ) Back to being serious, if you have encountered him you know what I am referring to. He has a lot of authority but only as much as we allow him to have. On the way to work this morning, I was listening to the set list my team was singing for Sunday and I began to just pray in the spirit. (I wish I could be on the outside looking sometimes – just to catch a glimpse of what people are seeing. I’m sure it’s quite funny.) The Holy Spirit began to fill me with an urge to pray for fresh revelation, restoration and new energy. I began to see a roster of names to pray for. It was as if movie credits were scrolling. Then – the Lord spoke to me.
“Where there is no vision, the people perish.”
WOW. This is why I had felt like I wanted to quit because I had allowed myself to lose sight of HIS vision. Ironically, I had just read through the book of Ruth – Where you go I go? What you say I say? We can’t very well follow and repeat if we aren’t in tune with where He is going and what He is saying. We have to know the vision. Heard of a vision statement? Same thing. What is God’s for your life? Otherwise, we are just flying by the seat of our pants hoping we just happen to follow Him in the right direction or just happen to repeat what He says.
I want to encourage you to stay focused. I don’t find shame or embarrassment in sharing this with you because I am human. You and I struggle alike – different topics probably/possibly – but we still struggle. Men and women both struggle. Young and old both struggle. So I encourage you today, if you have lost sight of The ALMIGHTY’S Vision for your life, find it again. Not sure where to begin? Get in your Bible and just start reading. And pray – ask the Holy Spirit to speak to you. You will be surprised when reading how words will just jump out at you or appear as if they are highlighted on a page. Someone may call you randomly and say, “I just had it on my heart to tell you (insert something here).” If you ask sincerely, He will answer.
A project I have been working on seems to be taking a long time. But that is okay. I know that God is going to open up opportunities for this project when it and everyone in it are where HE wants us to be. Recently, I had a situation where some rehearsal space that I thought I was going to be able to use was no longer available. This meant rehearsing in my basement – which is small for 6 adults and music equipment. I was really concerned these people were going to get tired of rehearsing like this and quit. But the Lord reminded me, when we are called BY Him we are sustained BY Him. I don’t worry about that anymore. There are plenty of things out of our hands – our faith will take us through one step at a time. And OH the lives that are going to be saved in whatever God has planned for you and your life. If you haven’t already, I encourage you to start praying for those souls that are going to join the Kingdom of God. When they make that initial, most important decision of their lives, you know the struggle that comes next. The backlash from family and/or friends they will receive. We have the power to pray on behalf of them. We are filled with the power of Jesus Christ and all that He is. Our mouths are one of the most powerful things we have – and I believe without a shadow of a doubt prayer changes things. Please join me in praying for these souls. You are a city on a hill… lighting up the world for Jesus!!!!

Always A Bigger Picture

I keep a journal. In it, I write everything from things I see in visions, ideas God gives me, prayer time things, dreams, and plans (again given from God). A little over a week ago, I had the biggest revelation I have had in a long time. You see, there have been plenty of times when the Holy Spirit has pressed in and said “read Hebrews 11” or “you need to feed HIS sheep” (referenced in 1 Peter). At one point, I was going through a terrible time of arguing with someone and I was told to read I Corinthians (and I quote) “you will find the answer.” So here I am in any of these given situations thinking, “okay! I’m reading, where’s this answer to stop arguing with this person?” Or when I was told to read Hebrews 11 I was getting ready to give birth – petrified of what was to come. Long story short – if I step away from my super close perspective and look at the bigger picture… there’s only a hand full of books in the Bible Jesus ever tells me to reference. Well, the other day I discovered they are books of the bible dealing with FAITH. How do you get through delivering a child and the change that comes with it? FAITH. How do you get through a long time of arguing with someone you love? FAITH. How do you do anything without giving up? FAITH.

One of my spiritual gifts is FAITH. It doesn’t matter how scary things might be at any given place or time in my life… JESUS has always reminded to me to keep having FAITH. That’s the answer.

So look at a bigger picture when the Holy Spirit talks to you. There’s always a “larger” point to His answers.


A Reminder About The Woods

This morning I woke up with the same thing I went to bed with, an overwhelming feeling of being lost. You know how you feel like you have it all figured out… God has spoken over your life, you can see the steps beginning to happen and then BAM! you’re lost again… That’s me. Overwhelmed with a feeling like you are lost in the woods and running to find your way out but can’t. Like the closest person to you is a million miles away. You could scream as loud as you could – and no one would hear you. But as I awoke this morning it was as if a little bird were whispering in my ear… I opened my eyes and had a vision of standing in the middle of the forest. Then immediately following that I saw a map with “A”, “B” and a line going from each. Then I heard “you’re in the middle… you have to be in the middle if you are going from their to there” (meaning point A to point B). Point A and B reference a few things for me right now but in all of it is wilderness. The holy spirit was speaking to me to stand in faith. I am reminded of Moses – I don’t plan on taking 40 years.

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On my way to work, confirmation! The MC on IBN is talking about “standing”. Standing in faith (which often requires patience) is what we have to do to reach our destination. He threw in a nice reminder of our time not always being God’s time. This of course goes with the theme for my week which is STAND and the waters will roll back.

I’m renewed this morning and standing in faith for the things I have prayed for, the things God has spoken to me and the things yet to come. Just because I don’t see change doesn’t mean it is not happening. It just means God isn’t ready to publicize it yet. Sometimes this is because He is waiting on us to get something right. For the first time I can say I know my own flesh is not in the way of this one and that is such a great place to be in.

Standing. Waiting. And Ready.