Tonight, I sit here a little overwhelmed with what life is throwing at me right now. If I am being honest, I also thinking about how hard obedience to God can be – and how the deeper I go the harder it seems to become in some areas. Having walked with God for a while now, I know in my heart how worth it the obedience is; however, my head tends to try and think something different. [oh, the importance of making sure our head and heart are aligned with scripture.]
Today, I broke down. Tears streaming down my face because of some personal struggles I am going through. Even those of us who seem to never let anything bother us have days where you just sort of hit bottom. Maybe, even a pity party. Just depends on what sort of party favors are laying around. 🙂
I happen to be with my sister when this episode happen. She fed me kind words and tried to help me through my “moment” but it didn’t help. The reason it didn’t help? The struggles are in my mind. It’s not something, like alcohol, where I just don’t go to a bar. They are struggles that have a root problem you can’t avoid.
I left her house and drove towards Hiram to meet my husband. All in all, I had a 35 minute drive just sitting and thinking. “Break Every Chain” was playing in the background. My daughter and I had listened to this song over and over the day before in preparation for our upcoming Sunday at church. Holy Spirit reminded me of what had taken place yesterday afternoon:
On Monday afternoon the song was playing for (what seemed like) the 15th time. Kait said, “Mommy, watch me dance!” as she danced the best she could while singing the first few lines of the song and sitting in a carseat.
“There is power in the name of Jesus, There is power in the name of Jesus, There is power in the name of Jesus…” she sang as passionately as she could.
Then she blew my mind. She sang the words “to break every chain, break every chain, break every chain.” as she pointed to her mind. WOW. First of all that my child hears and sees so clearly at 4-years-old; but secondly, to see what the Holy Spirit was showing me…
Now I focus on breaking those chains by worshipping, studying, and getting loved on by Jesus! My struggles do not define me. They are not what disqualifies me. They do not name me, categorize me, or brand me in anyway. Being a child of the most HIGH GOD does all of those things – and to my benefit. It doesn’t mean I won’t struggle or have bad days. What it means is He is with me every step of the way and will see me through. Even when I don’t want to see myself through.
#knowyourworth #knowwhoyouare #straightenyourcrown
Galatians 5:1 “For freedom Christ has set us free; stand firm therefore, and do not submit again to the yoke of slavery.”
2 Corinthians 3:17 “Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom.”