When you begin your journey to discovering who you are – what you believe – and what you represent, you are just so excited that you jump on every opportunity to do what you love. Then the excitement turns into an expectation. That expectation eventually turns into disappointment. This happens because the reason you are doing these things is wrong in motive and perspective. Think about it… you are doing it because you love to do it, because you are helping out, because you have to, because it’s the right thing to do. Ultimately, you are doing it for you. You get self satisfaction out of it. You feel good about yourself because you are filling a need or just being seen or heard. You get mad if something doesn’t work out the way you think it should. You get frustrated when someone else is allowed to do something instead of you.
Well… let me shed some light.
When you are constantly frustrated its because your focus is too much on YOU. If your focus is on God, and what you’re doing is for His kingdom, everything else doesn’t really matter in the scheme of things. When the schedule is all of a sudden changed and it affects you – you know there is a reason. The Holy Spirit obviously feels like someone else needs a divine appointment. So instead of getting bent out of shape because your schedule has been affected, be joyful someone else is receiving an appointment with God that might just be life changing at that moment. In order to do that however, your eyes must be on the greater cause of God’s kingdom – not on yourself. Working for God’s kingdom requires sacrifice. That includes time, money, feelings and everything in between.
Don’t get me wrong, I believe order should still exist. I think respect should still exist. There is a time and place for leadership to make a stand for their team to be able to do what they have spent time to perfect and prepare to do. But it is important for those team members to be sensitive to the Holy Spirit to dictate if something should change. By working together and changing our perspective on why and for who we are doing things we are capable of greater things.
Your value doesn’t come from what you do for others or their reaction to you. Your value doesn’t increase because 5 people tell you how great you were at whatever you have done. Your value comes from your obedience to God, your humble attitude, your loving spirit and your sensitivity to those around you who need something more than you do. Just as Jesus died for our sins – yes us, people who are never perfect, will always mess up because our emotions get in the way, and will always let down others or be disappointed because others will never live up to our expectations – Jesus doesn’t see us like that. Imperfect us – meets perfect Jesus. Our self worth doesn’t get better than that.
When you get the point when something happens that doesn’t particularly make you happy but you are able to say – “God, if this change benefited your kingdom and your purpose than so be it… and I’m happy and okay about it” – I think you have made it to finding your value. I’m sure The Lord is smiling down on you saying, “Well done my good and faithful servant.”