Throughout being pregnant and now having Kait in my life – I think back to everything I went through with Elijah and I question “why”. Not in a bad way, only, what purpose did God have for everything I went through… Besides my own faith building exercise – I believe we go through things for other people. I am a firm believer that every situation touches more than just you. In a series of events, numerous people are somehow put to the test or given instruction or just rekindled with the Lord in one way or another. When I chose an OBGYN to go to while pregnant with Eli, I chose Tanner Medical Center in Villa Rica. The very first woman I came in contact with there ended up being the very woman I realized a year and a half later would be one of the reasons I went through it all. And for the outcome I was able to be used in, it was all worth it. Every tear. Every moment of disappointment. Every joy filled tear. Every celebration.
Over the year and a half this woman saw us go through the ups and downs of going through a miscarriage, trying again (and succeeding obviously) and going through the pregnancy with Kait. At the end of it all, I had developed an amazing relationship with this woman. I sent her an email thanking her for everything she had done in our stay at the hospital and throughout the 10 months of seeing her. In an email back, she wrote these words:
“You have been truly a reminder and inspiration on how deep our faith and belief in God should be in all things… …Thank you for pointing out my calling – it has been a long journey to get me here but I am finally fulfilling the will of God for my life.”
Everything I went through – while in the moment some of which was emotionally draining and overly exciting – was absolutely worth it. What we experience is not limited to just us.
To this woman… you are amazing. Your smile brought me through a lot. You made me comfortable in many uncomfortable moments, lol. You stand out above the rest in your calling and you will influence so many others. I pray blessing upon blessing for you and hope God expands His plans for you! I can truly say I love you from the bottom of my heart. You were quite an influence on me and helped me to see silver linings where I only saw nothing. Thank you for being in my life and for being so incredible!
So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
-Isaiah 41:10
Confession Letters 