My Experience with the Holy Ghost


I have always been the person to think abstractly enough and “put myself in the shoes of others”. I have also always been the type to support something even if I have never experienced it. This is my latest physical experience in my walk with Christ and my growing in the holiness of Christ. I had always heard from my mother, sister, grandmother and others who had had experiences in praying in tongues. Crazy? Yes, I thought the same thing; however, I did not “knock it” as being true. I, personally, had never experienced this. I knew the bible spoke of this gift and referred to it numerous times. How could something not exist if it was mentioned in the Bible directly? How could someone possibly suppress this when its directly spoken about by name?? I don’t see the wind, but that doesn’t mean it doesn’t exist. I have never seen the air I breathe, and yet, I breathe it every day keeping my body alive and kickin’…

1 Corinthians 12:27 (The Message)
You are Christ’s body—that’s who you are! You must never forget this. Only as you accept your part of that body does your “part” mean anything. You’re familiar with some of the parts that God has formed in his church, which is his “body”: apostles prophets teachers miracle workers healers helpers organizers those who pray in tongues. But it’s obvious by now, isn’t it, that Christ’s church is a complete Body and not a gigantic, unidimensional Part? It’s not all Apostle, not all Prophet, not all Miracle Worker, not all Healer, not all Prayer in Tongues, not all Interpreter of Tongues. And yet some of you keep competing for so-called “important” parts. But now I want to lay out a far better way for you.

1 Corinthians 14:1 (The Message)
[ Prayer Language ] Go after a life of love as if your life depended on it—because it does. Give yourselves to the gifts God gives you. Most of all, try to proclaim his truth. If you praise him in the private language of tongues, God understands you but no one else does, for you are sharing intimacies just between you and him. But when you proclaim his truth in everyday speech, you’re letting others in on the truth so that they can grow and be strong and experience his presence with you.

1 Corinthians 14:13 (The Message)
So, when you pray in your private prayer language, don’t hoard the experience for yourself. Pray for the insight and ability to bring others into that intimacy. If I pray in tongues, my spirit prays but my mind lies fallow, and all that intelligence is wasted. So what’s the solution? The answer is simple enough. Do both. I should be spiritually free and expressive as I pray, but I should also be thoughtful and mindful as I pray. I should sing with my spirit, and sing with my mind. If you give a blessing using your private prayer language, which no one else understands, how can some outsider who has just shown up and has no idea what’s going on know when to say “Amen”? Your blessing might be beautiful, but you have very effectively cut that person out of it.

1 Corinthians 14:26 (The Message)
So here’s what I want you to do. When you gather for worship, each one of you be prepared with something that will be useful for all: Sing a hymn, teach a lesson, tell a story, lead a prayer, provide an insight. If prayers are offered in tongues, two or three’s the limit, and then only if someone is present who can interpret what you’re saying. Otherwise, keep it between God and yourself. And no more than two or three speakers at a meeting, with the rest of you listening and taking it to heart. Take your turn, no one person taking over. Then each speaker gets a chance to say something special from God, and you all learn from each other. If you choose to speak, you’re also responsible for how and when you speak. When we worship the right way, God doesn’t stir us up into confusion; he brings us into harmony. This goes for all the churches—no exceptions.

But again, I had never personally experienced it. I was not against the idea of it by any means. Recently, I was at a new church sitting in an evening service. The pastor was preaching on “the baptism of the Holy Ghost”. Immediately, I folded my arms in disinterest of hearing what was being said. But secretly, I wanted to experience what he was talking about. While I had never had anything against this gift, now that it was resting on my heart to experience it, to be open to it, I was petrified. I had my eyes closed and the pastor said to say in prayer to myself (speaking to the congregation) “Lord, I want to experience the Holy Ghost”. I began to repeat these words. Tears poured from my eyes like rivers of water, uncontrollably I wept and wept and wept. The pastor said, “I know someone in here is wanting to experience this, to be given this gift”… “if I could grab this person I would, but the Lord won’t allow me.” I said in my mind, “God, I wish he would just come get me, then I would have to do it and get over this fear.” (Let me make this clear at this point — this pastor knew NOTHING of what I was going through or how I felt towards this gift.) After saying those words to myself, my eyes opened to a man sitting next to me saying, “you’re scared aren’t you?” It was the pastor! God had heard me and there he was calling me out!! lol I answered “yes” as he began to pray for me. A female also prayed with me, my sister prayed with me placing their hands on my back and my shoulders. I prayed continuously for the Holy Ghost to fill me up, to be able to experience this amazing gift they were talking about. I was asked to stand up and lift my hands, so I did. The pit of my stomach  began to burn intensely. The burning sensation began to slowly move upward from my stomach, into my chest, into my throat and then sat at the back of my throat while my jaws began chattering away as if it were 20 degrees in that room. (Which it was not). The feeling was like no other I had ever experienced. It lasted for at least 10 minutes. My tears continued to come until my jaws started chattering. When my jaws stopped, the tears began again. I believe with all my heart I experienced an the first of a Holy Ghost filled experience. I am praying for the release of the fear I have held regarding this gift because for those 10 minutes my life was completely different. I was the closest I had ever felt to God and his presence was spiritually and physically all over me. I could feel it! I learned this day that there is no way to experience something like this if you are close minded to it. You have to open your mind to the ability of the Holy Ghost and all it can do just like those at Pentecost were. (Read Acts 2:1-4, Acts 10:46, Acts 19:6 and surrounding verses)

I’m praying for the continued gift to become part of me 100%. I want this gift. I want to experience it again, but Lord willing further of an experience. I want what was in my throat to come out. To hear others speak — it’s beautiful. A language that only the Lord could create that is so gorgeous. I pray Lord, please grant me with the filling of your Holy Ghost!

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One thought on “My Experience with the Holy Ghost

  1. I think this is perfect!!! You know I think God speaks to us through our spirit. There is a difference between our spirit and our flesh. Our flesh tells us “Oh that is a bunch of spiritual people getting together believing their own lies” But I am here to tell you that the gifts are real! Sometimes the lord speaks through your spirit. You might hear people say this is dicerment. When God speaks to your heart about a situation that your waiting on or a situation for someone else the holy spirit is making a sound in your spirit. The reason he does this is for you faith to grow.

    1When the day of Pentecost came, they were all together in one place. 2Suddenly a sound like the blowing of a violent wind came from heaven and filled the whole house where they were sitting. 3They saw what seemed to be tongues of fire that separated and came to rest on each of them. 4All of them were filled with the Holy Spirit and began to speak in other tongues[a] as the Spirit enabled them.
    Acts 2:1-4

    They heard a sound first then God moved. See, when you are waiting on the lord he puts it in you spirit first then moves where you can see it. Just like Jade, she had a want for the baptism of the Holy Ghost and then he moved because she called on him and had faith. We have a god that is the same yesterday and today and forever (Hebrew 13:8). So if that came out of the bible then why is that people think that the baptism of Holy Ghost is old school stuff. I hear people say all the time. “Oh well I believe that stuff but I dont believe that it is used today”. Did God not make the universe, the world we live in, and our bodies? Then why would he not give us the same gifts as the people did on the day of pentecost? In Acts 2 verse 3 “They saw what seemed to be tongues of fire that separated and came to rest on each of them.” Verse 4 ” ALL of them were filled with the Holy Spirit and began to speak in other tongues as the spirit enabled them” It did not say only some of them but All. believe this was because of how great their faith was.

    Walking in faith can moves mountains. I have truely seen that in my own life. I have a desire in my heart to see God move so mighty that people will be saved, filled with Holy Ghost, healings, and I mean true healing. People healed of cancer, people walking out of wheel chairs, and yes I am even gonna go here! People raised from the dead. Just because he did it in the bible does not mean that he will not do it today!
    Let me ask you this, do you believe that you could walk on water if Jesus asked you to? I think sometimes as christians we look at the scripture and say, Wow praise God! Please exscuse my attitude but I have to be real for a second! Would I have gotten out of that boat. I dont know? That is some FAITH.
    I hope and pray that the next time God sounds something in your spirit that you stand in faith believing. Now your saying to your self, I think I have been sound in my spirit but how do I stand in faith. You get on your knees cry out to God, then get in your bible and find scripture that speak to your situation and SPEAK IT OUT LOUD. Dont go looking for the devil but when he knocks on your door you go and put your armor of God on and use the word to fight your battles. Anytime Gods sounds your spirit, Satan is not going to like it.

    Remember this:
    For the word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart. Hebrews 4:12

    Prayer: Please pray this with me!
    God I pray that my heart has the faith that moves mountains. I know that your our creator the Alpha and Omega, Beginning and the End, and no cirumstance is too small for you. Please lord guide me and protect my steps everyday that I am on earth that I may glorify your name. Help me to become a leader of your word, and use my faith for the kingdom of God. In Jesus name amen.

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